keep it.

Wow. I caught my breath for about 24 hours and the urge to visit here quickly surfaced. That's great, right?
I went and read my first post of the year and my most recent one to remind myself of my proclamations and affirmations and, dammit, I'm proud that I did what I said I was going to do. Every single thing (ok, maybe with the exception of housecleaning-on a consistent basis anyway).
To then think of where I was on my last post on my birthday to today, a month and a half later, it's as if nothing and everything happened all at once. My life was pretty much handed over to work. It usually is, but I fought harder this year than ever before I think. Although, I think part of me mentally shuts down this time of year and I walk away in such a haze I don't really remember. It was, to say the least, a challenge on so many levels, but not the hardest and I faced it and conquered it.
I laid out a gauntlet of challenges this year for myself, others put some on the map, too. And looking back, I just went for it. It's as if I just found this will deep inside that was just like yelling "LEAP FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, LEAP!" So, I listened. As if I had a choice.
Here's the thing, I don't feel like I'm crossing a finish line as the calendar changes. There's no ribbon to run through, balloons, fireworks. It's no where near over. That doesn't scare me. I want more. Keep pushing. Keep going. Bigger. Better. Brighter.
So I'll keep making an effort to create positive habits.
I'll keep taking better care of myself.
I'll keep traveling, seeing and doing more.
I'll keep putting my energy into the amazing people in my life and I won't even worry about the ones who aren't.
I'll keep writing more.
I'll keep wanting more.
I'll keep saying "yes."
I'll keep being a bad ass.